複雜人生 • 簡單心情

Sometimes I wonder "Am I pathetic or stupid or both?" I think the answer is quite obvious. Of course it's both. Lately I have been thinking about Harry (not me, the other Harry) I thought Yanco would be the last straight man I would fall in love with. Now I stuck in the same cycle all over again. Christine asked me why I kept making the same old mistake again and why couldn't I find the right man to fall in love with. Well, if it was that simple, I wouldn't be here talking the same issue again and again, right? I think my gaytar is not quite mature to detect other people's inner "gayness" I made a mistake about Yanco, but Harry, I am not so sure. Yes, some of his gestures are girly, and no one has ever seen a single picture of his so call "girlfriend" who he claims is in Taiwan. I know I am being paranoid, but I just can't shake the feeling.

Last week I joined the "Face Book" website as Amy insisted me to do so. The very next day, Harry added me as one of his friends. I would be lying if i told I wasn't excited by that. But i just don't have the courage to talk to him. Last week, I had CMPT Lab, and the lab happened to be at the Applied Science building. I know it's stupid, but there is a tiny bit of hope that I would meet him there. Well, I didn't see him, but I did saw his picture on the enigneer science graguate student photo section. He looks good in that picture. That's all I have to say.

This Sunday, me and other four Tzu-Ching are going to Coquitlam to have sign language practice with Coquitlam's Tzu-Ching. It's definily that I am gonna see him. will something happen this weekend? I don't know. We wi