Sometimes I wonder "Am I pathetic or stupid or both?" I think the answer is quite obvious. Of course it's both. Lately I have been thinking about Harry (not me, the other Harry) I thought Yanco would be the last straight man I would fall in love with. Now I stuck in the same cycle all over again. Christine asked me why I kept making the same old mistake again and why couldn't I find the right man to fall in love with. Well, if it was that simple, I wouldn't be here talking the same issue again and again, right? I think my gaytar is not quite mature to detect other people's inner "gayness" I made a mistake about Yanco, but Harry, I am not so sure. Yes, some of his gestures are girly, and no one has ever seen a single picture of his so call "girlfriend" who he claims is in Taiwan. I know I am being paranoid, but I just can't shake the feeling.